. . .
Dearest «i am» of “You”
,
«i am» loving “You”
… ❤ … ….
… !!! …
.
Please, do not fret, Dearest !
In “this” lifetime of mine,
being “blocked” has been
“part of the schedule” …
.
Starting with my own “family”
at … “home” … …
was never … “accepted” for
my «i am» …!
.
In fact, since i was VERY little
“the joke” (on or about “me”)
had been that
there was “a mistake made”
at the clinic i was born,
and they “gave them
… the wrong baby”.
.
And then, a very little “later
in life”, my family would
be calling me
… “Ataxia” …
the Ellenic word for
… “Nautiness” …
as,my “rebel nature”
knew of “no~barriers” …
.
Particularly,
for “always”
being “fat”
and,
eventually,
with
the whole
“gay thing” of mine …
.
… ” i “have been a “liability”
for the … “family’s reputation”
AND
more importantly,
the … “inheritance” ,,,
… the very two things
that,
from “the start”
were
NOT “priorities”
of mine !…
BUT / AND
were, ofCourse,
… “the family’s” …!
.
And, so
was
… “shunned” …
“put on the side”,
… “perithorised” …
for not
… “conforming” …
to the “set
of rules and regulations”
of
said … “family values”.
.
Have been “used” for my
“gifts and talents”,
but/and
once it was of no “use”
to them anymore
or,
once it was evident
i had A LOT MORE to offer
than
the “enclaving”
of the … “family busy~ness”
had any “use” of
… “the family” …
have been
… “secluding” me
and
… “social distancing” me …
(sound lately … “familiar” … ?!?)
.
Was never … “supported”.
Other than
what
“the family”
considered “support” …
which was
the … “financial” …
and,
even “that”,
was, ofCourse,
“according” to
NOT
what i have been in the family
NOR,
what i have offered
through
“my” hard work and BEingNess,
but ONLY,
“according to”
… what
“the family … thought”
… “Alexia deserves” …
which is
basically,
“… what
a fool,
a clown,
a looser
… deserves …”
,
My nephews,
for example,
particularly one of them
being my “GodSon”,
have been … “systematically”
since their “teenage years”,
… “avoiding”
ANY contact
with me …
mimicking
their parents’ … “behaviour” ,
that
… “Alexia” …
had been having …
.
And,
no matter how “far” i would “travel”,
trying to
“be MySelf”
without
“the judgements”
and,
… “make it on my own” …
,
somehow,
i have been
“always”
conFRONTed
by people
with
… “suspicion”
and “redicule”,
and “despise”,
and “fear” …
:
… the “bloody foreigner” …,
… the “fat old cow” …
… the “fucking dyke” …
… the “idle idealist, non~pragmatist” …
.
Which,
TRULY,
since “my own family”
have never offered me
the “support and protection”
that
my «i am»
has
ALL WAYS
~
“always”
offered
with ALL my BEingNess,
with NO … “discrimination” …
to “them”
AND
to any “other” …
(which “non discrimination”
has been the “hindrance”
to people of not “coping” with me)
well, …
“it”
… the whole “blocking” thing
guess,
has been more
… “manageable”
than
it could have been …?!?
(… mind you,
i wouldn’t mind it one bit,
IF
it was “easier”
and
DID have
“support” and “protection”
… ❤ 😊 ❤ … ….)
…
AnyWay …
Dearest «i am» of “You” !
Look !
You inspired in me
a whole other … “block” of writing…!
LOL LOL LOL
… ❤ 😉 ❤ … ….
LOL LOL LOL
…
Seriously, Dearest !
being “blocked”
… so very “systematically” …
only means …
… how did “you” put it ? …
«you pinch them, Alexia»
.
Yes, my Dearest !
the “old paradigm” is being “pinched” !
As it should,
by so many of us,
the … “Light Workers” …
particularly,
the “First Wave of Volunteers”
as
Dolores Cannon
described us
that we came on Earth
and
“managed” to … “survive” …
after spending
ALL these “linear” years
(in my case, …
“half a century” …!)
… “alone” …
and
“attempting suicides”,
all throughout
(“my last serious” attempt
being on the 2nd of January, 2019)
from
the horrifcations
we “FEEL”
… “of personal” …
AND
of “done” on “Gaia”,
Her Self and BEingNess
Her Creatures
Her BEings,
Her human BEings
ALL around
… this Beauty~Full Globe …!
…
STILL
… WE …
ARE “HERE”
IN THIS “NOW”
FINDING EACH OTHER …!
For
WE ARE HUMANITY THE BEAUTY~FULL
WE ARE HERE TO CARRY THROUGH
OUR ABUNDANCE IS INEVITABLE
…
Dearest «i am» of “You”
,
ALL WAYS
~
“always”
.
Grateful & Great~Full
.
ale3iA
.
… ❤ … ….
.
#disMANtlingEMPIRES
.
#reCALLingTRUTH
#REmemberLOVE
#createABUNDANCE
.
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